Am I In the Right Place?
I have recently returned home after spending 5 months living in Chiang Mai in Thailand. Since returning home, I’ve been reflecting on this question:
Am I in the right place?
Life in Chiang Mai was full of conversation and possibility, mixing with people from all over the world. Days were filled with yoga, healings, conversations, spiritual connections — all the things that light me up. I loved my time there.
The contrast between where I was and where I am now is striking. Since coming home, it sometimes feels like I’ve never been away. I live in a quiet, small village. It’s slower, more spacious, but definitely less stimulating. I’ve caught myself wondering whether I’ve outgrown this space — or whether this stillness is exactly what I need.
In Human Design, I have an open G Centre, which means I am highly influenced and impacted by the environment I’m in. My sense of who I am and where I’m going in life changes depending on where I am and who I’m with. I tend to become my environment. It deeply influences how I feel, who I become, and what’s possible for me in any given moment.
So the question “Am I in the Right Place?” is never far away.
From all my travels — and I have lived in many countries — I’ve learned that where I am is never just about my physical environment. It’s about whether I can recognise myself in the version of me that shows up in this place.
But something I’ve noticed is, even when I move somewhere new, I don’t leave myself behind. My patterns, sensitivities, and responses come with me. So while environment does shape how I feel and function, it’s not always the answer to whatever discomfort I’m experiencing. Sometimes, it’s more about how I relate to the space I’m in than the space itself.
So rather than trying to answer the question — should I stay or should I go? — I’m learning to stay with the question:
“𝐖𝐡𝐨 𝐚𝐦 𝐈 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞?”
“𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭’𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐬𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞?”
“𝐂𝐚𝐧 𝐈 𝐚𝐜𝐜𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐫𝐨𝐰 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐞 — 𝐨𝐫 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐜𝐚𝐧’𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲?”
I don’t know the answer. And with an open G, it probably won’t be a consistent answer.
For now, I’m just paying attention — noticing how I feel in different situations, with different people, at different times of day. I’m trying to listen not just for comfort, but for vitality . For what enlivens me — and what flattens me.
I can make the most of the environment I’m in. And maybe someday it will be time to move. But if that happens, I trust it will come from clarity — not escape — and in response to something real and alive, not forced.
𝘐𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘷𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘯𝘷𝘪𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 — 𝘱𝘩𝘺𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭 𝘰𝘳 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭 — 𝘐’𝘥 𝘣𝘦 𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘰𝘶𝘴 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘯𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵. 𝘌𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘯 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯 𝘎 𝘊𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘰𝘰.
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